Craziness and Behind on bills

Things are just crazy around here. I had to reduce my hours at work because I have a back injury... I have degenerative disk disease and spinal stenosis. I am in alot of pain nearly all of the time. We also suspect Fibromyalgia, but I can't afford to go to the specialist. I dropped my hours with the advise of a social worker who told me I would qualify for some state aide to help with my medical bills. So I have been scraping by for the past few months, had to move to a smaller house and well, made many adjustments. This didn't work. The only thing it did was cause us to fall behind on rent and bills and cause all of us to become stressed and depressed. So I'm getting ready to go back to work full-time. I may even change jobs for a higher paying one. Maybe I can find one with insurance that wont rob me blind too. So while I'm wanting to get started on designing scrapbook kits and such, I'm still hanging out and waiting. I haven't found any good sites with lessons that I can afford and really haven't felt like doing it anyway. Just been downloading freebies to do my layouts, which I haven't done much of and can't post, cause I didn't remember to keep the credits to the ones I did. Maybe I should purge my whole computer and start over. Naw... I'll just keep those ones for printing out for my own use or something. They are to pretty to lose. Well, anyway, have lots of cleaning to do today and have to work early tomorrow... just wanted to post something.. sorry it's so depressing.